I need money

Buying this DSLR camera is making me crazy; I can’t bear it anymore. I am reading, listening, and watching about it all the time. At the beginning I wanted to buy a Canon 40D, but now all of them are sold and there is no more 40D in mcbain camera website. Now I am convincing myself to buy Canon 450D known as Rebel XSi with its kit lenses Canon EF-S 18-55 f/3.5-5.6 IS. The whole price is 700 + tax. I also like to buy a Canon 50mm f/1.8 mkII prime lenses with it which right now costs 129 CND.

Hereby me, smnva, while I am completely sober and conciuos, declare that I am ready to do anything, absoultely anything, to earn 829+tax to buy this camera and save myslef from getting crazier. I hope somebody who is kind enough and needs a computer scientist read this and save me and my soul from this life.

Miserable Feeling

The worst feeling one can have is to hate his/herself, you can’t do anything about it. Everything makes you feel worse, eating, drinking, sleeping, smoking. Things like listening to music, watching a movie, and talking to a friend that usually cheer you up from sadness are useless. Even something very special like “The One” nice calming email can’t do anything! All of these things simply don’t work because problem is something else, you hate yourself, your soul, your body; And this disgusting thing is with you all the time and reminds you every moment that you should not be happy.

I don’t know if everybody has experience such a feeling, but I am feeling like that right now. I am trying to be reasonable and think why should I feel like that, but I can’t help with it. A mixture of anxiety, fear, and regret has made me to hate myself. Anxiety because of making a very dear person sad, fear of something terrible happening, and regret of ruining a special moment.

I wish the whole thing was a nightmare, I would wake up, drink a little water, and think “what a terrible dream was it, thanks God it wasn’t real”. I am pretty sure that awakening day will come, some day …

The Night

BMO, Hands, Yani, Food, Washroom, Miracle, AmrAl, Tim Hortons, Chat, PrzChb, No 6, Couple, Sunrise, What?!, Lew, Tiny , Bawsh, Lew, Sunset, What?!,  Lew,  Lew, Lew …

Omar Khayyam

Decision

“To deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human.”

This is a quote from Matrix when the programmer guy called Mouse is talking with Neo about the lady in the red dress in the simulation program. Here you can find the full screenplay of movie and here are other famous quotes of movie. Enjoy …

Kurdish Love Song

I listened to this music more than 20 times and still I feel like listening more. I wouldn’t go through its translation, as it is really hard to translate a poem and preserve both its meaning and its pretty rhythm. The part which I love talks about how it feels when he kisses his sweetheart.

BTW, the singer name is Omar dzayi.

The One’s Poke

You may answer dozens of emails everyday, but none of them makes you think about it as much as the “The One’s” emails; You wouldn’t wait impatiently for all email’s responses, but for “The One’s” emails.

You might be pocked by different people, but “The One’s” pock feels different; Nobody knows why …

Finally, The One's Poke

My long absence

Well as I am sure that I don’t have a permanent reader, I don’t bother to say “Oh, sorry. I was ….. blah balh”. Here I am back

I want to talk about great movies I’ve watch lately. The first one is “The Curios Case of Benjamin Button” (imdb, wiki)directed by David Fincher. I like the whole idea of movie and also all plays were natural and smooth. One of the things that I like was a scene which Benjamin counted all subsequent things that happened and finally lead to a car accident.  He said if just one of those things didn’t happen then that accident would not happen. Movie’s last scene also was very moving, it makes you to feel sorry for Benjamin and to appreciate the life the way as it is.

Both at the end, but in different shapes

The second great movie I watched was Slumdog Millionaire (imdb, wiki), again the idea of movie’s plot was very creative. Two parallel stories were flowing in the movie, one was the life of a young Indian boy and the second was a TV show which he was its guest. At the end of movie, those two threads reach a shred point and his life was merged with the show. The idea of remembering some of his life moments to answer questions in the show was neat.

A same idea in the movie poster

Both of these movies are nominated for the Best Picture award in the 2009 Academy Award Contest. I can say for sure this year the nominated movies are much better than last year’s movies.

Loneliness (2)

If you have been using a same toothpaste tube for more than one year, then you are alone!

Juliette Binoche

Tonight I watched “The Unbearable lightness of being”[imdb, wiki], it was not that great I talk about it. The most important thing was Juliette Binoche, and how much the plot was fitting to his personality. At least in my eye, happy, kind, shy, and faithful. I like one of her quotes the most in this movie:

“How someone can make love without being in love”

270 to Win

I hope Obama will be really the man who has been introducing himself in the last few months.

63 to Win

I am ready for:

Hip, hip, hooray …..